OMG

forgot to tell you! i GAIN FREAKEN POUNDS IN A MONTH! :)

I'm Done

trying to do stuff that is going to get me no where.
i seriously am just trying to find out who i actually am cause i think I'm trying to hard to be something that I'm not, and i don't like that. I'm not trying to start a new life, i wanna take two steps back and take a different path.

I should respect my friends the way they respect me right? well i guess I'm doing the wrong thing sometime.. i feel like they treat me like shit and seriously i might just be over exaggerating this. but i do feel like i give them a lot more respect then they give me by far. but the thing is i do disrespect them but they still tolerate me so i guess i just need to understand that my best friends are my family and were mean to each other in a brother, sister way... sometimes we do take it to far and hurt peoples feelings though and we really need to work on that.

Today i just kinda snapped on people and i hope you don't hate me. but i was seriously on the egde of punching a fucking wall. i was actually really really mad. Ok i get it, i just complain too much right? and i do the same exact thing but to tell you the truth i don't do the same exact thing. i feel like you take me for granted sometimes. you just don't get that you cant just be mean to me and then just expect me to be nice to you 5 seconds after you need something. i've had this feeling for so long. I feel so used. but you know your my best friend and i would never want to stop being best friends for anything. you mean the world to me. maybe my feeling is just a phases that im going through and im going to get over it soon.

as for you both i feel like you guys are going farther and farther away from me.


anyways.

So, no one told you life was gonna be this way.
Your Job's a joke, you're broke, your love life's D.O.A.
It's like you're always stuck in second gear.
And it hasn't been your day, your week, your month, or even your year.
But -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.

You're still in bed at ten and work began at eight.
You've burned your breakfast, so far everything is great.
Your mother warned you there'd be days like these.
But she didn't tell you when the world has brought you down to your knees.
That -

I'll be there for you ... when the rain starts to fall.
I'll be there for you ... like I've been there before.
I'll be there for you ... cause you're there for me, too.


<333 night

alright!

so today was mucho funno.... hahah

well first after school i hung out with some friends. i was informed that there was fan dance and i had no idea.... but anyways we ended up eating at dq. then going to my house and hung out. they left. and i sat at home doing.. nothing! at like 7:50 i went to the mall. got Vans :) and then met up with boon and rachel. we watched step up 2. pretty much the best movie ever haha. the ending was my fav! haha

now im here.. i should be doing homework.........but im not. and now im going to...
so goodbye :)

im feeling good!

haha i came home and finished all my homework early, it feels so good to be done. although im done and im still not in bed.... wow... haha but i just felll really good right now :)

Emotions

change for me, very rapidly. like one seconded i was happy, calm, then angry, pissed off. i dont know. i wass just by polar today..

Asian celebration was really fun, i love bondding with my team members. But there is like a ex-dancer that bugs the fuck out of me. she just talks to much shit. and she was there and she always glared at me. and i hope she reads this cause i just want to let her know that i really dont give a shit about her.

Anyways, Rachel Sov
you are a wonderful person, and i love you dearly, i really dont know what i would do without you. i can trust you with most everything, and i know that you will always be there for me. I'm so glad you joined our team :) fan dance wouldnt be as fun without you! when you go to college, ima miss you hella! haha so you better come back and visit. OFTEN! and by then you will be able to sleep over haha, So thats going to be wonderful. I know you had a rough day today, but you know that no matter what i have you back. i love you dearly :)
-angelaaa.

ksjghuahwiughjskdfn i love everyone <333<333<333<33<33<3333<33

i love you , and you


haha good bye

filler :)

my filler day blog, so we have a pretty interesting subject in goegraphy lately and i'm really interested. its about Child soldiers. Seriously it has to be one of the saddest things ive heard of. my class are all writing letter to try to stop it. heres my letter :)

Dear Senator Ron Wyden,

Imagine having your children, sisters, brothers or anyone that meant something to you, being taken away. Imagine never seeing them again. Imagine having to live a life without them knowing that they have a high risk of dying. When it comes to these kinds of issues it put me to tears. During an Africa conference that I went to in my IHS classes, I got to go to a booth that changed my life. I’m glad that I got to learn about the Invisible Children and know that they are helping out these poor innocent children. I discovered that any child that were able to hold a gun could be kidnapped and taken to be children of the war. Girls that were kidnapped were used for older men and were forced to marry. They were basically used as sax slaves. I also learned that all these kids weren’t treated right, they were drugged, fed less, and were crowded. They sleep in one room with no space.

I would feel so much better knowing that all kids could have a regular life. I know I don’t speak for myself when I say they don’t deserve this. When I say this I mean nobody deserves to have there childhood years taken from them, even if they weren’t good kids. People learn from there mistakes. Kid’s deserve the right to live there life and become what they want to become! When I know kids that are smarter, more intelligent, and or more talented than me, are having to spend there life killing, used as sex slaves, and killed for nothing they did wrong, it hurts me so much inside. They have it so hard.

I did some research on children soldiers and I found that:

‘Today, we are sending over 3200 former child soldiers back to school. But unfortunately we have to refuse thousands of them, because our resources are limited. This really hurts. My heart goes out to all of them”, says founder Els De Temmerman,’

I have to say that is a huge step in the process of ending child recruitment forever. But if you support the Child Soldiers Prevention Act of 2007, it will help even more.

I urge you to support the Child Soldiers Prevention Act of 2007, bipartisan legislation introduced by Senators Durbin and Brownback. This important bill would restrict US military assistance to foreign governments involved in the recruitment or use of child soldiers. Governments would be eligible only for military assistance to address the issue of child soldiers and otherwise professionalize their armed forces until the problem is remedied.

In at least twenty countries, children are involved in warfare. Many are front-line combatants, while others serve as guards, porters, cooks, or messengers. Girls may be expected not only to fight, but also subject to sexual exploitation. While most child soldiers are in their teens, some are as young as eight years old.

I was deeply troubled to learn that in at least eight countries, the United States is providing military assistance to foreign governments that either recruit and use children in their armed forces, or support militia groups that use child soldiers. Such assistance implicates our own government in this terrible crime.

This important bill will help ensure that US taxpayer dollars are not used to finance the exploitation of children in armed conflict, and that US weapons do not end up in the hands of children.

I know you took time out of you day to read this letter, but you really don’t know how much this means to me. For you to help these kids, you’d be helping me. I would be able to wake up every morning knowing that others and I made a difference to hundreds of kid’s lives. So I thank you again for reading this letter. I thank you for all of your consideration.

Sincerely,

Angela Ngo

Valentines day :)

today was a good day <333
i love my friends so much, they always know how to bring my mood up. thank you. i have made such good friends this year, im so happy :)